September 3rd, 2009

Building A New Life

I don't as yet really understand emotional energy, but I do have some experience with various forms of kinetic and chemical energy, and I'm going to assume that, to a degree, energy is energy. Which means I can't spend what I don't got. So I have to pay careful attention to building that energy so as to avoid slipping into depression.

I've noted before that a lot of the Jewish custom I grew up with was based around food. Which works; food can be a fine source of aesthetic as well as dietary satisfaction. But insufficient concentration on *other* forms of aesthetic satisfaction can lead to health problems fairly quickly. If eating is all I do for fun, a lardball I am likely to become.

I've historically used sexuality for my primary energy source; for various reasons I don't think that's a good idea right now. What other sources can I reach, and how?

The first two that come to mind are singing and dancing. Both require skills and practice, and I'm not at the moment practiced in either.

I've suddenly had all I can take of pedantic writing. I'm going to try to come up with a lyric to the one "walking blues" I know how to play, in hopes I can fit a melody to it and generate something worth singing.