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Okay, I'll balance on a two-legged stool for a while.
polydad
I've been doing abortive re-starts for a few years now. I want this next one to not be abortive; I want it to take off and fly.

Two central pillars so far: I'm going to join a gym, and I've figured out how to take my writing seriously without relying on others -- such as y'all -- for feedback and encouragement. (*Editing* is still useful, and so are outside opinions. But getting useful input isn't the same as relying on it for the energy to start the creative processes.) I have a vague feeling that pillars should come in threes, and if I find a third one I'll be happy to make use of it. But I'm not waiting on it.

Two impeti for this: First is a few months of feeling like crap, and realizing that a major causal factor is not getting enough exercise. Hence, gym. Riding my bike up the hill to get out of the little hollow I'm living in is so much of a pain in the ass that I haven't been riding nearly as much as I should be, but that's the reality of it and the gym will give me someplace to go and exercise even when the weather piles on top of the hill and makes biking a real misery. I still *can* ride as much as I want to, but I want to make going to the gym an every-morning-habit.

Second is not getting the input I want from Brian and Elliott, and simply deciding not to wait on them. They're under no obligation to *give* me input, and I am similarly not laboring under any requirement to wait for it. So I won't. I'll continue to babble at them, because I do that, and I'll babble at anyone else who doesn't run away fast enough also, but despite my personal conviction that noise is a sign of wasted energy, if I have to waste some energy to get my creative processes running I'll worry about optimizing processes later.

I have three angles of attack for my current ficton: The Para and Schmoo stories, which I believe I've already babbled about here; the Iron Fireman, a set of stories inspired by Paul Guignan's 'Boilerplate', about a humanoid robot in 1915, and actually building an Iron Fireman suit to wear to GearCon this year.

Bedtime.


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A terrible thing, then, if it turns out to be a bassoon in disguise.

I have to get ob track exercise wise myself. I have a y membersgip and im not doing a good job if actually using it.

*chuckle* "Do your exercise, or I'll refuse to spank you"?

Well.... im already being denied sex via lazy as fuck domming ..

More like "lazy as *no* fuck" domming.

My hitachi is my best buddy. That abd im blessed to be a former greeter on fetlife. Ublimited porn! Woot!

I'm somewhat baffled by his behavior, or lack thereof. Even if one is borderline asexual, it's so easy and fun to play the "It's *your* job to make *me* come" game. (Which then morphs into "You're going to come for *my* amusement" game.)

He chooses masturbation with coke over having a sex life. His peoblem not mine. I really need to find a local lover.

Edited at 2019-03-05 03:19 pm (UTC)

Hes not asexual. Yoy might be confusing him with Bu... but the end result is the same. No sex for me.

Edited at 2019-03-05 03:21 pm (UTC)

Was mentioning asexuality as an extreme border case, not because I thought it was immediately applicable.

I almost wish it was... he has the right to veto sex with others. I wish i had never said ok to that. If he were asexual maybe like bu he'd be ok with me fucking others.

Edited at 2019-03-05 03:30 pm (UTC)

Thiugh he promises to use the dungeon space once i finish decorating it.we'll see. I'll believe it when it even happens

Edited at 2019-03-05 03:22 pm (UTC)

By the way we coukd chat via gmail if you have a gmail account.

I'm headed out at 8:30am local, so if you want to chat this morning quicker is better. I don't have your gmail or I'd have added you.

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